welcome. everything I write here is something I felt to be important to some degree; game reviews, life updates/vents, and philosophical musings. I do my best to make my statements truthful. everyone is welcome to post comments, provided they are relevant.


video game wishlist (upd 12/7)

this is more for my reference for now since this list is in no particular order

Saints Row, Dead Rising, Lego Star Wars II, Tomb Raider: Legend, Marvel: Ultimate Alliance

Nintendo DS
Castlevania: Dawn of Sorrow, Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney, Mario Kart DS, Mario & Luigi: Partners in Time, Brain Age: (title too long), New Super Mario Bros, Big Brain Academy

Final Fantasy XII, Okami, Grand Theft Auto: Liberty City Stories



Jon Stewart is my religious leader.


the only beliefs that matter are the ones that make the world a friendlier place.

did you see that? i didn't say "better." "better" has been defined in many, even conflicting, ways. the word "better" on its own is what we call V A G U E.

Moving on... true belief is a form of understanding, an interpretation of knowledge and events significant to the believer. forced or embedded "belief" is information that the subject has taken in and accepted as fact, wether it is true, untrue, or wholly irrelevant to life.

Now for my own belief: the *proper worship of god(s), God, or some higher being, is much like aspiring towards an ideal. let's face it, humanity hasn't exactly gotten its act together, and it would be nice if there was something better to look up to. The way I see it, God is supposed to be a euphemism for "humanity, except friendlier."

Granted, I have done extremely little research on religions and their gods, who's worshipping who and why. The majority of my experience with religion is shaking my head at people who pray to "the father, the son, and the holy ghost" before and after every step they take in life, evangelists, and G. W. Bush.

done for now... if I don't get comments on this post, I don't know what will
(fyi, putting a * next to a word in online chat rooms marks a correction)



reading over my old blog entries makes me sad, because of all the opportunities I've passed up. it seems like I was held back by money issues... I have never tried to spend more money than I have or know for certain I will have. I've also spent more money than I should have on entertainment over the years. If my life is a building, it feels like the building is getting too tall to be stable, and the support structures are weakening. not enough budget to reinforce the foundation... or something.

My mind is healthy, my body is poorly kept but functional, but it feels like my soul has been sorely neglected for the longest time.

I never seem to act on my dreams. I love music, games, and writing, but I almost never try to create my own... I can never seem to focus on a single task, instead looking for things to occupy myself with, unrelated to my long-term goals.

Every time I try to write something for the novel I keep thinking of, I can never get myself to just write Something... I have a grand total of 1 page that I did several months ago, as a first page. I'm very skilled at singing, but it's not something I really planned on pursuing. Going solo, I'd worry about my body too much, and I've always been very self-conscious about my body, thanks to the constant harassment in grade school. As for games, I don't have the program skills to be useful in development, at least not yet, but then I'm not even sure I want to do that.

Video games are my favorite time-sink, and if I make anything out of my life, I'd want it to be a long, challenging, story-driven, and musically magnificent video game.


you = ?

have you ever gone into deep thought trying to define yourself? How do others define you? how do you want to be defined? I think this can be done on 3 levels, and these levels should be considered separately, though it is important to remember that they are all connected and are essentially the same thing

the body
the mind
the soul/spirit/whatever

the body is what most people will see first, and it is the means with which we interact with the world. The mind stores all the knowledge we have accumulated, controls the body, and lets us understand the world. the soul/spirit/whatever has not been defined by modern scientific means as a metaphysical entity (as far as I know), but for the purpose of defining a person, it is the part of us that understands, wether it be emotions, rocket science.

now, if there's going to be any arguements fueled by this post, it's going to be about the soul. I personally don't care if you think the soul is or isn't a metaphysical entity. As for the separation of mind and soul, what's important is that you understand that there is a difference between "smarts" and "personality."

these three parts are developed and maintained separately, and mistreating any of them will have detrimental effects on the person. Injury to one of these levels can cause damage to the entire person, depending on the nature of the injury, and treatment should also be considered for each level of the person.


new job is good

so, I'm working at Michaels at the south keys plaza, in the framing department. The department manager is cool, as is the store manager. I may be working around the store as well as framing. It's my.. second week there, and it's good to be working.